Monday, January 13, 2014

Just a normal study

HOLA FAMILIA!!!
picture, Look i bought a sun hat and made a salad, it was the best pday ever! now my comp and I really look like J-dubbs... Oh well at least I can see!
 
FIRST OFF YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW EXCITED I WAS TO ARRIVE AT THE CYBER TODAY. BABY LEAH! for the past week every single night without fail i have had a dream of the little angel... and it his been so long waiting. I woke up at five ready to come to the cyber... all you missionaries know that sleep is sacred. yet I wanted to give it up, for her it is worth it... to bad i had to wait until now. well I had a pretty normal week, this upcoming is transfers so we will see where the wind blows me. my companion is convinced she is leaving since she has been here for 7 months. so i am guessing the same for me here in haedo with a new comp. we will see!  since not much happened this week i want to share an experience for my personal study,
 
one day in personal study which is literally the best time of the day and one hour is never enough. I decided to do an activity in the good old preach my gospel.  it asks us to read John 15.1-6 and I was blown away by this set of scriptures, they hit me like wreck it ralf.  First off with verse number five.  "without me you can do nothing".  in this parable Christ is the vine and we are the branches.  Just like a vine is the center core for nutritionment and supples everything with what we need, so should be Christ. In the center of our LIfes, the very core.  especially in missionary work.  How can I ever expect to get anything done without crediting my Savior... I CANT!  and I sadly have to admit that somedays I am only fueling on hermana alley power which in reality is just an endurance test.  just like elder holland always says "this is not our work, it is His."  naturally we then we should do it with his help and guidance.  In verse number nine "so have I loved you, continue ye in my love." well everyone loves to be loved.  and its not very often in the scriptures when these three words together are directly pointed at the reader.  I tell people everyday their father in heaven loves them but then sometimes I "forget" or really just dont pay much attention to it.  Hello he loves me and he loves you.  and He is constantly telling us.. sometimes we just become preoccupoied with other things.  Just like my grand-ole mamma at home, when everyday afterschool she would ask me how my day was and tell me that she loved me. My response, "yah mom I know" then go back to watching the tv.  I always know that I am loved deep down but when we really do listen not to the words but the meaning behind them "I love you"  becomes an entirely different emotion. Sincere and forever.  Enough that our Savior would lay down his life for us FOR US, and eough that a loving mom and dad give up their desires for their kids, dedicating all their time and energy to the bnefit and love for their kids. Now it only gets better in verses 13, 14, 15, 16... this is where it really blew my mind.  "I call you not servantsñ for the servant knoweth not what his Lord doethñ but I have called you friends." we arent servants of the Lord, we are friends of the Lord. Think about it. bloooown away.  every word that comes to my mind with servant is negative, its just a negative tone. Think of history of the world, yup negative. yes it is true we all have a gift that we can never repay, but servants is not entirely a choice and we have more than a choice.  We have been given complete freedom, agency to chose was the whole point of being here.  No we arent his servants we are HIS AMIGOS!  True friends are always there for eachother and know eachother inside and out.  We know what they feel with out them having to say a word, we are willing to give ourselves because of love no other reason.  it makes so much more sense, means so much more.  I would do anything for my friends and I will do anything for my brother the Savior.  I am His friend, and everday it is a blesssing a special gift to put on a name tag that represtents my family"s name and Jesus Christ"s.  The two most precious and eternal gifts of my life. I love the scriptures, thank you John!! and I love this gospel and am grateful for every second that I am able to find more treasures in it, to have my testimony sky rocket upwards, and to really be put through the refiners fire- to not just say I believe but to really believe.  I love my eternal family and I love Christ "my vine" who has chosen me (in my mind just an ordinary branch) to bring people the fruits of this gospel.  In the name of Jesus Christ, amen!
 
Le quiero muchos!  como muchos!
Un brazo muy fuerte

hermana ALLEY!!!  


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